11:51 am ()...

I'm back. But not really for good 'coz we still don;t have blog access in the office. Those damn IT people doesn't want to give back our access! Grrr!  Blogs are still on surf control...especially blogdrive! Hay! Whatever!

Question..."Why is that when you think you're feeling okay and you're happy, you suddenly realize that you're not? Could it be because you're pretending too much that you made yourself believe that you're feeling that way?" Hmm..tough question huh? Well for me, I'm feeling much better now than I used to 2 months ago. I had my share of tough and rough times the past year. I don't know what I would have done without my good friends. But with all the things I went through the past years, I learned a good deal of lessons. And i learned my lessons fair and square. Now I always tell myself that...God will give me things that are meant for me to have and that I don' t have to rush things. I have to take each day at a time. *baby steps....baby steps..baby steps* I know too that the people you hurt me will get what they deserve. I guess, I'll just forget all the bad memories and keep the good and happy ones. I know, I'll be really happy. God has so many things in store for me. All I have to do is wait. Just be patient. Basta, I know I'm happy and I have moved on. There are so many things to look forward to this 2006. My time will come and I will shine. Just wait and see.

Anyways, I was not able to get the final result of my skull x-ray last week. I was so damn freaking busy! Why? I don't know. That's what I just asked myself...why? bakit busy si Jan? Hmm..??? *isip-isip*  I saw my crushness the other night and last night. He's so cute! Like what I always say about him..."sideview pa lang, ulam na! " Hehehe!  Hay, I'm so kilig! And he kept looking my way pa kaya...as in kilig! Weeee! *with matching kilig body movement*  Enough of him.

I have to go to sleep. Ciao!

 3:16pm ()...

It's been a while since my last entry and so many things have changed. We still don't have Friendster and Blogdrive access in the office though. And I'm so busy with work these past few days renedering OT.

Am I doing okay? So far so good. Still surviving. Loving all the good things that are being thrown at me. And fighting all the bad things.

I celebrated MY BIRTHDAY last January 14. I had a small get together at Aby's (my friend) house. Only 5 of  highschool friends and I were invited. I had so much fun spending my birthday with my true friends. Friends who never left me when I needed them the most. I'm very thankful I have them as my friends. I couldn't ask for more. Thank you, COF....for everything you've done for me.  Them the day after my birthday, I brought Korean Pancit for my teammates. Thank you to all the people who remembered and texted me on my birthday.

Last Friday night (January  27), I had an accident. I fell and hit the back of my head on the steel case of my bed. I really don't know how it happened. All I remember is...I stood up and next thing I heard is a loud tump. And when I opened my eyes all of my family members are on my side asking me what happened, if it hurts or if there is blood. Well, there's blood because there was a laceration. But not too much. It's only a 1 inch laceration that didn't require stitches. My mom brought me to the hospital and I had skull x-ray. The initial results was okay...no fractures. But I still need to go back to the hospital tomorrow to get the final x-ray result. it will tell me if I still need to have CT Scan. I'm hoping and praying that everything is okay with that final x-ray result...no damage and realy no fracture.

And last Sunday (January 29), it was the much awaited NSI Prom Night Party. Actually, it was suppose to be our Christmas Party but since we are still queueing, it was only celebrated last Sunday. It was fun though not everyone was able to attend. Mike and his girlfriend, Cris, bought me home. This Sunday is also the start of our new shift. But my new schedule is just the same as the old one. 10pm-7pm Monday-Tuesday off. I can't and won;t complain why  got that sched because I chose it. There are no other available graveyard shifts on the roster. And besides, I already have that schedule for the last 6 months, so it's no news or changes for me. I came to love the sched.

And today, my mom and I went to NSO (National Statistics Office) to get a copy of my and the 2 kids' birth certificate. I need it for the tax exemption thing. And for the kids passport application, I'm planning to bring them both to HongKong Disneyland. If not this year...next year maybe.

Tomorrow will be another month to look forward too. I'm moving towards my goals. And I'm so happy I'm getting there. I'm still thankful for each day that I'm given. I'm looking forward to reaching my goals and the plans I have set up for myself this year. I can't wait to make it all happen.

'Til my next entry...

3:30 pm ()...

A new chapter has begun. I can't believe myself. I'm so okay now. No more tears...no more thinking about the past...no more thinking about the memories. I'm no longer scared of what the future will bring. I'm happy because I'm gaining on happiness everyday. And I'm learning to love myself. My friends are right...it's not bad to love yourself a little. Or give yourself importance every once in a while. I learned so many things from what happened. And I'm sure gonna keep the lessons.

Now, I can't wait to see and feel wait the future has in store for me.