3:43 pm ()...

The pain of loving someone you can't have is much more than losing someone you
love. You know you can have the person, but for some instance...outside force or
reason, something is stopping the other person from loving you. And that's what
hurts the most. It's really hard falling in love with someone, huh? My answer to that
is...YES. I've been in love and had my hard broken for...I don't know how many times.
Oh well, some may say...That's life" or "Life and love is never fair". Oh yes, it never
was. I can attest to that. There are things in life that you can have, but you can't have
in love. And there are things in love that you can't get in life. What the fuck am I
saying?! And why the hell am I feeling this way? Knowing the person loves you, but then again he can't love
you back. That's one of the feeling I dread feeling. But guess what...I'm feeling it. Hahaha! Me? Remenber I just
got my heart broken almost 4 months ago. And now...my heart is broken again? This is making me laugh. You
may ask me? Why did I allow myself to get my heart broken again? That's the same question I'm asking myself
right now. Why did I allow this person to hurt me this way? Why can't I tell him I'm hurting? Why do I love him
so much? Argh! I'm hearing my heart break into tiny little pieces again....over and over. Why can't I stop it from
breaking? Why can't this person stop hurting me?

I've made my decision. I'm moving on. I'll forget whatever feelings I have for this person. He doesn't have to know
how much I love him. His happiness matters to me more than anything else...even more than my own happiness.
So I'm letting him go. I'm no longer his Baby. I'm setting him free.